I’ve decided to create a 4th blog – on what it’s like to be a 52 year old designer who’s been out of work four years

Single, with no personal assets, no family assistance and no promise that things will get better. I’m going to tell this story mostly with screenshots of rejections. The 3rd blog, which has always been all private, is a finished chapter, mostly concerned with last year, April through the end of it. I’d accepted my first and probably last full-time gig in Podunk Portland, for 10K … Continue reading I’ve decided to create a 4th blog – on what it’s like to be a 52 year old designer who’s been out of work four years

Magick, Mediation, Motivation – or lack thereof

Magick & Meditation Month was pretty much a bust I don’t feel like I accomplished anything and, in fact, I have regressed terribly in terms of other kinds of personal discipline, like exercise. What I was most hoping was that daily ritual would – yes “magically” – help my real life efforts in the interminable struggle to make ANY sort of money in Godforsaken Podunk. That … Continue reading Magick, Mediation, Motivation – or lack thereof

Researching Sock Companies

I was totally bummed out by being on Mississippi and downtown yesterday. The best time I had was at a plant nursery that had some great arrangements and some gorgeous chickens, wandering around their courtyard. I spent mere minutes at my destination and then got back on bus 4 for downtown. There is no THERE, there Well duh – when in or near Portland, just stick to … Continue reading Researching Sock Companies

This is going to be a pretty good week

Art Plans It’s suddenly springtime and for all of its deficiencies, the natural beauty of Portland springs are glorious. Yesterday when I got the cats outside I looked ahead at the weather and realized it’s finally plein air painting time again! I’ve really lagged on using my oils downstairs. I can’t get the lighting right. I’ve had to back myself into an awkward corner to … Continue reading This is going to be a pretty good week

Life in Podunk is a constant scrambling for small bits of cash

So… it was my birthday Saturday & I’m a big believer in celebrating birthdays for at least a week. This used to be a practicality in NYC, where I had a good income and a wide-ranging circle of friends. You’d need to get to all of them! This year, of course, I launched a Go Fund Me to get help with my Creative Cloud, and … Continue reading Life in Podunk is a constant scrambling for small bits of cash

Meditation and Creative Inspiration

I slept in today, which I really needed. Got out of bed at 8:30. Of course this comes with earlier wake-ups from dreams and the kitties, but I dropped back off again every time. Meditation is the bomb I get the best ideas while I’m sitting, when of course I am attempting to focus on an inward, non-verbal attention. A particular meditation practice in Bardon’s Initiation … Continue reading Meditation and Creative Inspiration

[updated] I’m getting a lot of practice driving to downtown & back anyway

It was the third trip made to update my eyeglasses. Turns out my $600¹ frames weren’t a very good idea, in 2016, because now the lenses are fatter than the frames. I went $150 cheaper, for lenses at an independent firm. They had a flaw right in the middle of the right. I was going to upgrade immediately but they talked me into giving the … Continue reading [updated] I’m getting a lot of practice driving to downtown & back anyway