Random Friday musings

Took a rest day yesterday, because I ended up cooking a spontaneous, quite gourmet meal for Charlie and I. I’d been obsessed with getting a balsamic reduction right, based on having had a really good one, homemade by a friend, many years ago. To achieve this I followed the advice on one website and got a 10-year aged, Italian brand. They advised at least 5-7 years. Delicious!

I have an appointment downtown this afternoon, and I might take a second rest day. Not because I need it! Thursday’s Astanga totally fixed up the tweakiness in my right side. I’m SO grateful I have these body tuning skills in my toolbox. Anyway I  might get back too late to want to exercise. I’ve long been a morning person in that way…

It’s pretty cold out again, and I’ve checked the weather. Initially I was thinking I might scout out a late afternoon oil painting location. This is the painting date I’ve already postponed once. Unfortunately I’ll be out of town at what looks like the next good day for it, and landscape situations can change pretty quickly.

But maybe I’ll take bus 15 from my appointment to New Renaissance books & have a mosey around. I always enjoy the vibe of that place…


I’ve been greatly entertained all day by the Don Jr divorce news

Uncontested = hide the assets = he’s obviously in some very deep shit. I couldn’t be more pleased.

It’s a game I play, to remind myself of what’s going on at the highest level of US government, whenever I feel sad about my financial situation, which is, of course, too fucking frequent.

I’d put the stuff below on Facebook, but I think I’ll put it here too. I’m bored, yes, but not bored enough to Netflix.





Made myself a new mala for my birthday


I’ve been working with Jupiter / Sachiel a lot, and thus the stones are blue lapis lazuli, chrysocolla & amethyst. Numerologically speaking, eight is my birth number. It’s also a big prosperity number. So I threw in eight skull beads I’d bought, randomly, a long time ago in New York. The finishing ornament is a Triskele: The Celtic Symbol of Constant Motion.

I’d been meaning to do this for awhile! And I’ll be needing it as part of my study of Initiation Into Hermetics. I finally finished the second part of my Soul Mirror. Today was my last entry. Tomorrow I’ll be starting on a run of concentration exercises. It’s a very deep practice that actually keeps score! Your mind flickers off its focus and you move to the next bead.

Normally I don’t chant that much (except if you count the Lower Banishing Ritual, but that’s not one of those repetitive chants) but I have done a few of those 40-day runs in the past. Might do another!

Therapeutic, slow Astanga yoga

I was going to go back on my promise to practice today, but in taking a look at a lifting routine breakdown I discovered I felt like doing weights even less. Didn’t do the jump rope either. Nor did I put on any music. It got me back out of bed anyway. I’d been journaling…

I was feeling all sorry for myself about things winding down with SF client, but low & behold a yogic illustration project is reawakening. I’ll have a deadline in the next couple weeks, and it’s better than corporate keynote presentations (even if I was having a good time working on that deck before I lost the rest of it due to being unavailable for two days).


Anyway, I did some yoga. I’m back to not putting my feet on my head, for the time being, and some timed poses before back bending. All I wanted for today was some relaxation, and I achieved that.


Here’s a rare, NON “exercise-routine-detailing” post

It’s a new moon in Aquarius today, at 1:05pm PDX time. I’d been sitting here, wondering what I’ll do with myself today. I’ve been working in oils… I was actually happy with a sketch I worked on Tuesday. I’d done what was supposed to be a value-tones underpainting already, but then I changed the time of day from late morning to late afternoon. I never worked on capturing real light, when producing my city scapes in my mid 20s. Didn’t have the time or resources for that. This was before the internet and YouTube too!

It’s a rest day after all

I was originally thinking to take today off, after a nice Mon-Wed run. Then had a 2nd thought maybe I’d do another Astanga. Then saw on FB it’s a new moon.¹  Now I’m thinking maybe I should take the first afternoon bus downtown & force myself to crack open my sketchbook. Have been making very lazy journeys into cat gestures… Might be good to take a break from the mysterious, maddening oils and use some watercolor too. I need to keep drawing… I need to log more hours just plugging away. I can’t let the highly sporadic possibility of remote design distract me. I’m not going to keep filling in availability hours. They know where I am. Finally got around to posting a new Craig’s List this morning. I should have at least one of those up every month…

I should restart the Drawing a Day thing, today

Charlie had gotten going on a 100-day challenge, but petered out after a week or so. I was only aiming to finish up the 6-weeks from where I’d left off, day 11. It’s a watercolor assignment & you’re supposed to leave your house, lol. I kind of feel like going to NW 23rd, the bookstore… Even if I just work with ink pen in the shop I could sit down at Barista later & add some color. I’ve gotta see if that new tree of life sketchbook can handle water media. That’s the leather bound one that was supposed to be “part 2” in the witchcraft / hermetics / magick journal. Same same, I think.

There’s leftover marionberry pie from jam night. I’m going to have some of that for breakfast, since I didn’t partake in the evening. Then I’ll take care of a t-shirt logo revision for a friend & get my field trip supplies together.









¹I never paid attention to the moon when in the thick of The Cult, especially during the later, post studio years. I’d rest when I needed it most, not according to the calendar. I’ll admit I have a tenuous belief that practice is better on full moons than new…

I finally got my laptop back!

Note to self: NEVER try to do anything at Apple Pioneer Place, that doesn’t involve giving them money, around the holiday.

I’ve never had a problem there before & people have seemed really helpful, until Christmas 2017 and Jeremy.

  1. I got badgered into signing a release for them to ship it off to a service center, to have a battery changed, after I’d just watched it pass all diagnostic tests but battery.
  2. The next day I realised I’d be out of town Friday. We live at the end of a blind drive, that’s long and windy and goes uphill. The kidz had had a situation where the UPS guy didn’t want to deal with their new fridge, and it spent five days on the truck, marked as “out for delivery” on the tracking all five of those days. I decided to call & back out of the shipping agreement.
  3. I spoke with Heidi, who did her corporate bid to dissuade me. Finally I said, Look. I don’t want it shipped. I’ll need to come pick it up by Thursday at the latest. If you can do it before then, fine. If not I’ll reschedule. 
  4. I thought we were done, but no! Jeremy called the next day, interrupting my workout, sounding peeved and trying to pressure me back to my original position. First I said, I went over all of this with Heidi last night, and then finally, in frustration, I don’t want to waste your time. What I meant was MY time.

FFS Apple, it’s a fucking battery goddamnit! I’ve bought five Macs for myself over the years, about seven iPods and I’m on my third iPhone. Honor your fucking AppleCare contracts without torturing your consumer.

That was the first time I’ve ever experienced badness there. I guess it’s the holidays, but still… We poor consumers don’t get to decide when the equipment and insurance we bought needs to be used.

Hermetic Reading & Practices & planning ahead for 2018

I’ve been catching up on reading, sans laptop

Been buying all kinds of esoteric stuff on Amazon too, because I’m not free to get the one thing I’ve really been wanting, an iMac, which might well have helped me with proofreading, thus keeping my single, probably gone now client happy. I’m like C- level at proofing, especially since I can’t print multiple drafts of everything I work on. You see misalignments right away on the printed art boards. If you’ve got 5 desktop layouts & you’re working on a 15″ laptop you spend all of your working time zoomed waaaaay the fuck in.

Focusing on the magic

Just attempting all the work in the book below will take another year or so, if I put 10-20 hours consistent effort in every week.

I was just about to finish the first half of the 2nd exercise of step one. It’s such a hard one I delayed nearly a year before starting. Then Thursday happened. It was a Holiday Buzzkill for sure… But I finished my Qabalah book and started reading Initiation again.

Lots of stuff got delayed because I have been sans laptop

I’ll only have a little time before the weekend to work on the “black” portion of the soul mirror. I’ll need to get back to all the other things that got postponed for lack of computer, the south waterfront painting and learning how to build my first puppet in Adobe Character Animator. Then there’s the cat show, which I’m sure will be exhausting, and NYE. Suddenly what would’ve been accomplished before the end of the year will instead finish closer to mid January.

So fuck it! I’ve gone ahead and ordered the next Bardon at $57 from Amazon. Used to be $48, I think, but that seller is out. On eBay the cheapest is $114.

I should be able to finish step 1 of Initiation in January and work on step 2 in February and so on. I should be able to shatter a glass jar with my mind by step 5, lol.

If I look st the Stoic side of this I can say that obviously I’m not meant to be a designer who earns money via her computer, not any more. But I’ve got a ton of art supplies.

Fuck sending out resumes that get ignored due to my age and location! I’ll do magic and work on art.

Oh I also got myself this new planner. Decided to try a new type.

Nice, cheery hardcover.

My vision board, lol. Why not I guess?

I started writing. Hey I’m camped in bed this holiday. May as well make the best of it.

It’s undated so you can start whenever you want, but I’m going for good, old fashioned New Year’s Day. All of my currently delayed projects can be targeted for January.

Tomorrow should be safe for driving (as long as it’s not me at the wheel) so we can go pick up my laptop and maybe either meet our poet friend for lunch. I’m going to work out earlier than usual and already prepped the coffee maker & brought it upstairs. I guess you could say I can’t wait to get out of the house for a little bit. Not only am I inside; I’m mostly upstairs, with one or two cats.Theodora is the one who stays by my side. What a little treasure she is.

Other things that can’t happen without a computer

Was ready to start categorizing character flaws according to elements & then prevalence, (aka the black half of my “soul mirror).

Funny but I began by looking up the negative traits of the water signs. Since I’m a triple Pisces it makes sense a lot of my flaws seem watery:

  1. melancholy
  2. inability to handle corporate structures (I need to be the one forming the systems & processes so I only do well in small companies or small, “start-up” departments)
  3. escapism & addictive behaviors

I sure saw the emotional hysteria of Cancer last night…

I was going to move on to earth today, since that’s the next most prominent element of my astrological chart. I’d have probably finished the project next week & could then move on to the white mirror, my positive traits.

Oh well.

So… my South Waterfront piece will have to wait. I could start something new but I don’t have the space to set up a still life & leave it in place for the duration and it’s too cold to work outside.

Stand in my messy bathroom & draw what’s on the counter? I guess… maybe. I could bring leaves inside & do studies maybe. But not today.

Apple insisted on shipping my laptop to a service center to change the freaking battery

And now I’ll probably be without a laptop until the end of next week.

My SF work seems to have dried up (and they still haven’t paid for November). I was going to work on a composition today. Had gotten a 300lb sheet of hot press for it. Guess what? All the reference is on my laptop.

Then I got into a big fight with Charlie about the fact that I want to use my own money to finally buy an iMac. My arguments for why I should are “stupid” by the way, and I’m an asshole.

Name calling is so effective for handling disagreements…

I also use my laptop for exercise….

Didn’t want to bother getting out of bed today. It took three visits from the kitten.