I’ve decided to create a 4th blog – on what it’s like to be a 52 year old designer who’s been out of work four years

Single, with no personal assets, no family assistance and no promise that things will get better. I’m going to tell this story mostly with screenshots of rejections. The 3rd blog, which has always been all private, is a finished chapter, mostly concerned with last year, April through the end of it. I’d accepted my first and probably last full-time gig in Podunk Portland, for 10K … Continue reading I’ve decided to create a 4th blog – on what it’s like to be a 52 year old designer who’s been out of work four years

Magick, Mediation, Motivation – or lack thereof

Magick & Meditation Month was pretty much a bust I don’t feel like I accomplished anything and, in fact, I have regressed terribly in terms of other kinds of personal discipline, like exercise. What I was most hoping was that daily ritual would – yes “magically” – help my real life efforts in the interminable struggle to make ANY sort of money in Godforsaken Podunk. That … Continue reading Magick, Mediation, Motivation – or lack thereof

Researching Sock Companies

I was totally bummed out by being on Mississippi and downtown yesterday. The best time I had was at a plant nursery that had some great arrangements and some gorgeous chickens, wandering around their courtyard. I spent mere minutes at my destination and then got back on bus 4 for downtown. There is no THERE, there Well duh – when in or near Portland, just stick to … Continue reading Researching Sock Companies

Life in Podunk is a constant scrambling for small bits of cash

So… it was my birthday Saturday & I’m a big believer in celebrating birthdays for at least a week. This used to be a practicality in NYC, where I had a good income and a wide-ranging circle of friends. You’d need to get to all of them! This year, of course, I launched a Go Fund Me to get help with my Creative Cloud, and … Continue reading Life in Podunk is a constant scrambling for small bits of cash

Writing exercise, super blood moon, Gigantic Brewing

Man, I feel creeky and sore this morning, about 100 years old. I had to start taking some dioxycycline again though, for the old dental problem. I felt like writing… I’ve been doing the Abraham Hicks, “Create the Climate” exercise, in the form of tweets, which I screenshot. Was it the 4%? I’ll admit today’s was harder. As of last week, I was supposed to … Continue reading Writing exercise, super blood moon, Gigantic Brewing

Yet another job option emailed me back for an interview I can’t make

Not reading my cover letter that clearly states I’m in Portland, at the moment. As I’ve known for years, my location is the problem. The most likely place I’ll find the regular, employment is back in sock design, and that is almost entirely in or around New York. Also no companies pay relocation unless you’re a corporate manager in the 130-150K range. I tell them … Continue reading Yet another job option emailed me back for an interview I can’t make