Magick, Mediation, Motivation – or lack thereof

Magick & Meditation Month was pretty much a bust I don’t feel like I accomplished anything and, in fact, I have regressed terribly in terms of other kinds of personal discipline, like exercise. What I was most hoping was that daily ritual would – yes “magically” – help my real life efforts in the interminable struggle to make ANY sort of money in Godforsaken Podunk. That … Continue reading Magick, Mediation, Motivation – or lack thereof

Researching Sock Companies

I was totally bummed out by being on Mississippi and downtown yesterday. The best time I had was at a plant nursery that had some great arrangements and some gorgeous chickens, wandering around their courtyard. I spent mere minutes at my destination and then got back on bus 4 for downtown. There is no THERE, there Well duh – when in or near Portland, just stick to … Continue reading Researching Sock Companies

I had a drama-ridden full moon yesterday

Not in a pleasant way, unfortunately! It was a lovely day and things had been going so smoothly, but then… I made the fatal mistake of sharing some beer and a salad I’d prepared, after having forgotten a small amount of cat litter on the table outside. It’d been mentioned once, but until very recently it’d been too cool to eat outside, and the amount … Continue reading I had a drama-ridden full moon yesterday

Life in Podunk is a constant scrambling for small bits of cash

So… it was my birthday Saturday & I’m a big believer in celebrating birthdays for at least a week. This used to be a practicality in NYC, where I had a good income and a wide-ranging circle of friends. You’d need to get to all of them! This year, of course, I launched a Go Fund Me to get help with my Creative Cloud, and … Continue reading Life in Podunk is a constant scrambling for small bits of cash

Writing, sock design, and wanting to paint

Remembered today that I was supposed to have begun again, if only temporarily, a daily seated meditation since the last new moon. That was last Saturday and I haven’t sat once. Oops. Next one is February 4th. I’ll try again. That’s been my repeating theme in life since I moved. I’m in a slightly better mood about it today than I’ve been lately, especially last Monday. I … Continue reading Writing, sock design, and wanting to paint

Yet another job option emailed me back for an interview I can’t make

Not reading my cover letter that clearly states I’m in Portland, at the moment. As I’ve known for years, my location is the problem. The most likely place I’ll find the regular, employment is back in sock design, and that is almost entirely in or around New York. Also no companies pay relocation unless you’re a corporate manager in the 130-150K range. I tell them … Continue reading Yet another job option emailed me back for an interview I can’t make

Funny that the people interested in saving me are those I haven’t seen in 30+ years

One of them is a liberal intellectual, more like myself. The other’s a cocaine dealer. The former wanted to marry me in first grade, and is now a VP at a Massachusetts based startup.  It’s a bit hypothetical at the moment, but he’s got enough clout to possibly secure a “support based” gig for me at his company. I’d be making less than half what … Continue reading Funny that the people interested in saving me are those I haven’t seen in 30+ years

Feeling a bit better now

I just needed to 1) self isolate and 2) vent. It’ll be good to see my friend too, tomorrow, even if I’d been hoping to eat turkey. She’s unlike most of the locals in that she both plans and communicates clearly. She is also doing an all vegan holiday. My friend Maria, in Connecticut, already has her table set, and beautifully, a day ahead of … Continue reading Feeling a bit better now