How to tame your dragon (reprogram your subconscious)

I keep having dreams of shortage or lack that are worse than my current reality, like having to scrounge up quarters for cups of coffee. And since when are cups of even ghetto coffee just a quarter? That was a couple nights ago. I immediately thought of Abraham Hicks, with its ideas of conscious and subconscious blocking. How do you stop your dreams though? A … Continue reading How to tame your dragon (reprogram your subconscious)

Writing, sock design, and wanting to paint

Remembered today that I was supposed to have begun again, if only temporarily, a daily seated meditation since the last new moon. That was last Saturday and I haven’t sat once. Oops. Next one is February 4th. I’ll try again. That’s been my repeating theme in life since I moved. I’m in a slightly better mood about it today than I’ve been lately, especially last Monday. I … Continue reading Writing, sock design, and wanting to paint

Yet another job option emailed me back for an interview I can’t make

Not reading my cover letter that clearly states I’m in Portland, at the moment. As I’ve known for years, my location is the problem. The most likely place I’ll find the regular, employment is back in sock design, and that is almost entirely in or around New York. Also no companies pay relocation unless you’re a corporate manager in the 130-150K range. I tell them … Continue reading Yet another job option emailed me back for an interview I can’t make

Sloth of New Year’s

It’s a rest day? Welp, I think I need a day off exercise. New Year’s Eve was low key. We cooked and there was no bickering and that was fantastic. Actually we got steaks to grill, which is definitely not  a weekly event so that was a treat. Watched some Grimm on Prime. Watched some Lucifer on Netflix. Went to sleep before midnight. And apparently … Continue reading Sloth of New Year’s

I’m really, really glad 2018 is over

Some good things did happen. In only five shows as an adult Theodora won best shorthair Scottish Fold in the world, TICA’s last season, which closed at the end of April. And then I started a new job, and got my license, despite hearing so many times while practicing how this or that would result in a fail. I was so convinced of this I … Continue reading I’m really, really glad 2018 is over

NEW FALL WINTER 2018: Friday Full Body 2 (also tarot, emptiness and daily goals)

Tarot card of the day was 8 of Cups, Indolence. SO right on… Hod in suit of water. Saturn in Pisces. Stagnation in our life with no interest in friends or personal projects. Affects are emotional and mental. Lack of effort due to the fact that “we cannot see any point to our life at the moment“. Feeling empty – no fulfillment. Just try being … Continue reading NEW FALL WINTER 2018: Friday Full Body 2 (also tarot, emptiness and daily goals)

Funny that the people interested in saving me are those I haven’t seen in 30+ years

One of them is a liberal intellectual, more like myself. The other’s a cocaine dealer. The former wanted to marry me in first grade, and is now a VP at a Massachusetts based startup.  It’s a bit hypothetical at the moment, but he’s got enough clout to possibly secure a “support based” gig for me at his company. I’d be making less than half what … Continue reading Funny that the people interested in saving me are those I haven’t seen in 30+ years

Coaxing oneself along with planned rewards & Meditation

Here’s a night time post. That’s three today! I need a break from The Road though. First day in and I’m already at 53%. This book was published in 2006. I was surprised! Thought it was older than that. The movie was only three years later, which is pretty rapid turnaround. I looked it up on Amazon but it’s not available for streaming, not that … Continue reading Coaxing oneself along with planned rewards & Meditation